Nine and a half weeks...

I have not been around.

That statement is more true than you can possibly imagine.  I have been home for almost two weeks after spending nine and a half weeks in hospital.  Three of them in intensive care. I am lucky to be here at all.  My family were told to expect the worst on more than one occasion and when it seemed I was going to live there was still the risk of organ damage, brain damage, stroke, etc. 

Yes. I am very lucky.  There has been no permanent damage. I will make a full recovery and be back to the way I was before eventually.

If you have read this far then you must be wondering what I am talking about, what happened to me. A couple of entries ago I was complaining about the delay in having my gall bladder removed.  In January I went into hospital via accident and emergency because I was in so much pain and a couple of days later I had the operation I had waited for for so long.  Within a day or two of coming home I was in an operating theatre fighting for my life.  Unfortunately, I developed a blood clot on my right lung.  Multiple complications followed its removal. Around 15 hours in theatre, 56+ units of blood and an Ecmo machine, and especially the dedication and skill of the surgical team  gave me my life back.

I will probably talk about this a lot when I have enough energy to use the computer. For this I apologise in advance. But the traumatic events of these last couple of months have left me grappling to come to terms with what happened.  I have been home for almost two weeks, roughly 8 weeks ago I had just left intensive care and could not even feed myself.  Now I can prepare a simple meal and am mobile within the house, although I cannot manage the stairs.  Carers come in every day and a nurse visits every other day to change the dressings on wounds left by the Ecmo machine.

I hate my helplessness.

I am grateful to be alive.

Comments

[John Bailey]

(if this double posts, I'm sorry!) but ... please take it easy, and make a good, full recovery... :-)

[zed]

oh francesca, i am so sorry to hear this, but at least you are still alive and on the way to a full recovery. do take care and relax, relax, relax.

[Tim Reed (from John Bailey's site)]

Please take care of yourself, rest and heal. The computer and your readers will wait. I've been where you have been and I know how hard it is to travel your way back to good health. But you WILL get there.

[Kate & Jim]

We're over here from John Bailey's (Old Grey Poet). Good wishes to you and go slow. We remember seeing your posts on his. Keep well.

[Elle]

Oh dear, you really have been poorly. Take care and rest, rest, rest :)

[gemmak]

Good lord ...you have been poorly poor thing, no wonder it's left you reeling a little. Take your time and heal gently and try not to be frustrated with what you refer to as your 'helplessness', it will all be resolved in time. :o) *Hugs*.

[rob]

Recently my partner went through a medical crisis which she was lucky to survive. we never know what lies around the corner and should live each day as if it were our last.

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